Dear my love ,
Today is exactly one month after I left you and England to go back on my duty. I miss you so much Gladys, I think about you every single moments when I’m in the trenches, facing with the death. You are my strength, my reason to fight back the spotted helmet enemies. Sometimes I get exhausted in the war, because it seems to be so endless. But then, I convinced myself that I have to continue because my other half is still waiting for me to come back. Last week, there was a raid that most of us had to leave the war. I and Broadbent, one of my friends are the only survivors. That was a horrify raid that I had to see my friends passed down, one by one, without saying goodbye. I met this new recruit called Renaud, he is about the same age of me. He died in that raid . He trusted me that I can show him how to keep his life in this raid. But he was wrong, and I was fail. Seeing him rolling around with fire made me feel guilty. The best I can do at that time was giving him a more peaceful death. A friend of mine, Fry, who I met for the very first time when I came to this guilty places also pass away. In my head, I still remember every single detail about the picture of him entwining my legs when the explosion of the enemy’s shell took away his legs. I was so frighten at the time, the machine gunner and the sniper were not let me some time to think a way to save him. They kept aiming and firing at us ceaselessly. Because of the human instinct, I shook him off and continued to run. Out of breath, I was safe in the trenches. And at that time, I was tried to organize everything that just happened in my head. When I think about how Fry felt like when I shook him, when I blow away his only hope. I felt so guilty, I felt like that wasn’t me, that was someone else who shook Fry away. I can’t believe that I will do that to my friend, but unfortunately, I did. I hope he can somehow forgive me in heaven, because if I stay, I may die too. In the other hand, he lost to much blood that I think he can’t keep his heart beating before we make it to our trenches. After that raid, I had knew the feeling when you killed a German like. It actually felt very good when I killed a German in the war, because when I killed a German, I know that the percentage that I will die because of a German will decrease. It’s all about survival Gladys, nothing I can do, nothing I can fix, everything is just the way it suppose to be.
I got small break after that raid, I felt much better after I left the war and got the promotion into two chevrons. I met a new family during this break which reminded me of the family atmosphere. The mother is the one whose care for me the most, she healed my legs, and she kissed me goodbye just like the way mom always do when her son going far away. My hand, it keeps writing because I have so many things to tell you, I wish I can continue writing but I have to go my training. I’m a two chevrons soldier already, I can’t be late for training.
I’m waiting for your reply, Gladys.
Harrison














